WELL, America was wonderful. It was pretty
much the same as when I left but my parent’s house was different, niece was
talking (a lot) I had a nephew & many other babies in the fam, and a lot of political ads.
A lot of people were asking if it was
weird, or if I was overwhelmed, or was I angry there is so much ‘stuff’- and
really, no. Home will always be home. Do I think there is too much unnecessary
stuff, DUH! of course, but I thought that before leaving. Some of my
perspectives are a bit different but I did not have a break down in the grocery
store when I saw several different kinds of lettuce or a whole isle of
delicious cereals, I laughed a little and was super grateful. That probably sums most of it up, I laughed a
lot and was super grateful. Oh, but America is really vein- is it really
necessary to have mirrors all over-not cool! But with that vanity comes pretty people-
the first thing I noticed along with all the English when I got to the ATL
airport was how clean and put together everyone was…besides me. And I do not like
automatic flush toilets, also not cool- the one in the airport really got me.
Although I felt like I relaxed a lot, I
actually did a lot. Several sleep overs with G, bachelorette party, wedding,
family party, Emmett’s first birthday, sleep over with Mal, exercise and coffee
with Brit and shawn, night with Nat, not one but TWO nights with Hill, Fiesta
Charras w the crazies, meeting SO MANY BABIES- it was great. I didn’t get to
see everyone but I enjoyed the time I did spend with everyone. I learned babysitting
two children is way more intense than one (sorry about the black eye E) and
above all family time is the most important. Just walking around Kohls with my
sister and mom, Meijer’s with my dad, pumpkin ale with my brother, watching
Mugsy be a multi tasking bomb ass mom- hot tubbing, sleepovers and family
dinners which led to doing nothing in the family room- that was the best.
The wedding, which I guess was the catalyst
that got me home- was great. Maggie looked stunning and I think we all had a
rock’n good time. I was glad I was in the bridal party so I didn’t have to
think about what to wear- and can I get an AMEN that the dress fit?! Whoop
whoop!!! I am very VERY happy for Matt and Mags, and am so happy to welcome
Matt into this crazy group we call family. It was also relieving to feel like I
could slip right back in the family even though I have missed a lot, so- thanks
for welcoming me with open arms! J
I felt a bit overwhelmed whenever I tried
explaining anything because there really is no explaining my life- especially
without sounding angry or cynical. At times I was probably too honest, and
other times I was probably straight up lying and perpetuating the romantic idea
of what everyone likes to think of our lives, but hey- that’s the shorter conversation
(‘oh yeaaa its great, I love it, people are so nice, I hug babies’). But the
truth is somewhere in the middle of hating it and loving it, I guess I am not
really even sure how I feel about everything.
I feel more motivated after visiting home.
I am in the home stretch of being here and ready to rock n roll! It is natural
to talk more about successes rather than failures, so through talking to people
I was reminded of all of the things I have done. Yes it is true, my language
sucks and I have watched a lot of movies- but I realized I have actually done
some legit stuff. To me some of the successes really aren’t that big of a deal-
so what I did my job- but maybe if I felt a little more, I guess, proud of
myself, and cut myself some slack I would enjoy the little things more. I would
have more energy, hope, and motivation to do more.
So.
Here I go. Cutting some slack.
Bottom line. My family is amazing. I can’t
express that enough, I am very very very lucky to have my family and friends in
my life. So, thank you to everyone I saw and helped me not only raise money for
camp GLOW but reminded me why I am doing what I am doing.
Ke a leboga.
YAY- happy you got to spend time with your family and glad camp went wonderfully!! You should most definitely be proud of yourself, for you it's just doing your job, but it's a job many people wouldn't and couldn't do! I know, I sound like one of "those" people, but I can't help it! I'm proud of you!!
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